I really hope to find some kind of work outside the home that utilizes my creativity. I might take the plunge and direct my short film, work harder to pursue freelance writing options or look closely at different graduate school programs. As Eliza eases further into her independence, I find myself starving for more adult interaction.
I'm done evaluating my situation with C. Although he's trying as hard as he can and I'll admit to being a pretty difficult person to be with, I'm done. It's tough to break up a family, especially an extended family with siblings who love my daughter. I don't feel loved here. We have no plans to get married and in the end, I'm an old-fashioned girl. I don't believe in forcing a marriage that shouldn't happen. But I don't want my daughter to grow up thinking that marriage isn't worth striving for.